How are you feeling?

I get asked this question several times a day, everyday. I try to answer truthfully, but sometimes it's just easier to say I'm fine. I am grateful to say that I have made it to 22 weeks. However, the thought of delivering early or losing the baby is constantly on my mind. I am scared. I am worried. I am stressed. Many of my friends are expecting and our due dates are so close that the thought of me not being able to carry full term is disappointing. I hope and pray that my body will be strong enough to carry the baby full term and that he is healthy.

Taylor kicks and moves a lot when I'm relaxed. When I'm on the move or busy, I don't feel him move and that scares me. When I get to the point of worrying, he gives me a little nudge or kick and makes me feel better. This week, my body is changing a lot and it makes me paranoid because I always run to the bathroom to make sure I'm not bleeding. I drive myself crazy sometimes, don't I?

Jacob is doing well. He is a busy busy boy. He is a loyal fan of Thomas the Tank Engine and just hearing the theme song will get him going. Jacob makes me so proud...though, sometimes I feel like crying because he has so much energy (and I don't) and all he wants is some attention that I can't give him. He is (sometimes) patient with me and loves me unconditionally (always). He is completely attached to me and loves spending time with his dad as well...going to parks and arcades, etc.

Jeremiah is doing great too. He is busy with work and sometimes struggle to find time to spend with us. However, when he gets time off, we ALWAYS have a good time. He has been very supportive throughout this second pregnancy and seem to always find a way to reassure me that everything will be okay. I love it and hate it at the same time, but I have to admit that most of the time, it helps. He loves to give Jacob his daily baths and I love watching them play together. If Jeremiah had his way, he'd totally stay home and watch the kids. Unfortunately, we won't be able to live under a teacher's salary. lol.

So, how am I feeling? Looking at the big picture, I feel blessed with a wonderful family loves me unconditionally and supports me when I need them most. I can't control everything, but I know one thing for sure...that is...I need to increase my faith in the Lord to help me get through the next few days, weeks, and months.