Don't let the smile fool you, this is just a picture with my little man before heading out to class tonight. What a drag...I can't wait to finish school this year. I vow to never attend post-graduate school ever again! Anyway, our scare tonight happened just about an hour ago at 10:30 pm. After the routine bath, Jacob would get his feeding and would go to bed. Well, tonight he was so onre and while feeding, he choked on some milk. This totally brought me back to the NICU experience. You'd think I'd know what to do, but because it hasn't happened in a very long time, I panicked! Yes, panicked! Jacob started to turn really dusky and I just froze. I called for Jeremy (our communication was totally tested in this situation and we failed miserably!) and it didn't help that he couldn't figure out what I was asking him to do, which was to help me. It took a while for Jeremy to react and Jacob finally breathed again, but I just felt like an awful mother. I don't believe I choked up and didn't respond to Jacob right away. I am so scared now. I don't think I will get any sleep tonight. I'll be concentrating on listening to Jacob breathe through the night and making sure he's okay. I hope this never ever happens again.
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Do you have an Angelcare monitor? It s a movement monitor that will go off if the baby stops breathing. Someone told me about it when we were in the NICU. It may help you sleep more soundly at night knowong it is monitoring
Jacob's breathing.
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