Sunday, October 31, 2010

Taylor J

This is the latest picture of Taylor. I saw the perinatologist last Wednesday and everything looked good. Isn't this an awesome picture? Tomorrow I will be 25 weeks pregnant.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Hug 'em, Love 'em, n' Squeeze 'em!

Here are pictures taken from the beginning of summer that I didn't post.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Counting my blessings

Today, my heart is full. I am grateful for so many things. I am grateful to have partaken of the Sacrament to renew my covenants with my Father in Heaven. I am grateful to have been able to hear the messages and testimonies bore today in our meeting. I am thankful for a wonderful husband who holds the Melcheizedek Priesthood and a son who wants to go to nursery so much, but couldn't because he was sick. Today, I am glad I was given another day to be pregnant with Taylor.

I have been dwelling on the "what ifs" with this pregnancy and haven't been enjoying it much. I cannot get what was said during a blessing that Jeremiah gave me the other night. It is constantly on my mind when I feel at my lowest point. I was reminded that all I needed to do was my part and that the rest would be in Heavenly Father's hands. He has a plan for me and I needed to increase my faith in Him and to accept what he has planned for me. It makes me emotional and grateful for the things I have now, the knowledge I've gained as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and the privilege I have had as a mother for the past two years. As I was lying on my couch today, I looked all around me and began to count my blessings. I saw Jacob's ball on the kitchen floor, his rocking horse on the carpet, and his shoes on the dining room table. I looked at my wall and stared at Jacob's pictures for what seemed like a long time and began to think of how blessed I've been to have such a smart and healthy son despite his early arrival. Underneath the picture was a framed picture of the Oakland Temple given to us by my BIL, Ben. My eyes began to well as I thought about the promises given to me when I was sealed to Jeremiah for eternity. I was comforted when I thought of all the blessings I'd receive here on earth and thereafter. I have so many things to be grateful for! Sometimes when things aren't going my way, all I need to do is be humble, count my blessings, and think of My Lord, My Redeemer and the things he has done for me.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Prayer request

Please say a special prayer for us tonight. Thank you.

10/14/10- I apologize for not filling you in. I had an extremely emotional evening after my doctor's appointment with the perinatologist. Taylor's position is head down and pushing against my cervix. The cervical measurement was fine and the doctor wasn't worried because it wasn't opened. I felt otherwise because I am afraid of delivering early. I felt better after my mom was able to put my name on the temple's prayer roll and Jeremiah's Priesthood blessing. On top of that, my good friend, Aimee Hensley, helped to console and calm me down. I was an emotional wreck.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

New words

Jacob graduated from the starter video of Your Baby Can Read two weeks ago learning how to read and recognize 20 words. He started volume one 12 days ago and have already begun reading a few new words. Some of those words are diaper, kick, eating, bubble, giraffe, bib, blanket, and others that I can't think of right now. He totally shocked to me tonight. As we paused the video before each word were read aloud, he was able to read the new words to us. I was shocked because last week, every word we tried to get him to read was "elephant." He is so silly.

Monday, October 11, 2010

How are you feeling?

I get asked this question several times a day, everyday. I try to answer truthfully, but sometimes it's just easier to say I'm fine. I am grateful to say that I have made it to 22 weeks. However, the thought of delivering early or losing the baby is constantly on my mind. I am scared. I am worried. I am stressed. Many of my friends are expecting and our due dates are so close that the thought of me not being able to carry full term is disappointing. I hope and pray that my body will be strong enough to carry the baby full term and that he is healthy.

Taylor kicks and moves a lot when I'm relaxed. When I'm on the move or busy, I don't feel him move and that scares me. When I get to the point of worrying, he gives me a little nudge or kick and makes me feel better. This week, my body is changing a lot and it makes me paranoid because I always run to the bathroom to make sure I'm not bleeding. I drive myself crazy sometimes, don't I?

Jacob is doing well. He is a busy busy boy. He is a loyal fan of Thomas the Tank Engine and just hearing the theme song will get him going. Jacob makes me so proud...though, sometimes I feel like crying because he has so much energy (and I don't) and all he wants is some attention that I can't give him. He is (sometimes) patient with me and loves me unconditionally (always). He is completely attached to me and loves spending time with his dad as well...going to parks and arcades, etc.

Jeremiah is doing great too. He is busy with work and sometimes struggle to find time to spend with us. However, when he gets time off, we ALWAYS have a good time. He has been very supportive throughout this second pregnancy and seem to always find a way to reassure me that everything will be okay. I love it and hate it at the same time, but I have to admit that most of the time, it helps. He loves to give Jacob his daily baths and I love watching them play together. If Jeremiah had his way, he'd totally stay home and watch the kids. Unfortunately, we won't be able to live under a teacher's salary. lol.

So, how am I feeling? Looking at the big picture, I feel blessed with a wonderful family loves me unconditionally and supports me when I need them most. I can't control everything, but I know one thing for sure...that is...I need to increase my faith in the Lord to help me get through the next few days, weeks, and months.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

And his name shall be...

...Taylor J Sorensen...